» Thursday, November 22, 2007
Hmmm...12.42am on a Thursday. I'm not enjoying school and all the wonders of it. I constantly feel trapped, stuck inside some sickening annoying box/prison/thing and trying to escape gets me slammed back in almost, if not all the time. I'm very pms-y this week and Xmas is my only motivation and joy through this whole period. I shouldn't even type Xmas. It's CHRISTMAS.
I have a million thoughts in my head. I wonder about what I'm actually working towards in life, about those whom I call friends, about university, about undone assignments, about love and its (non) existence (yep, I'm pretty much a cynic already), about my family. And you know what? Family will always be there, they'll never leave you, they'll appear at a time when you least expect it and they're the ones who will truly cherish you. It's all about that blood running through your veins.
Every year, as Christmas approaches, I'm reminded of horrible incidents, but this year, I want it to be different. I spend half of Christmas Day wondering what time my friends are coming, if I sent out cards to all the people who deserved it, if I missed anyone out on presents. This year, I'm not going to do that. This year, I will immerse myself in all the Tay-ness I can get, I will enjoy the true spirit of Christmas with family. Well, I should just convince myself first, it makes me feel better.
Anyway, because this entry is meant to be random, sometimes, I just wish people would be more sensitive. I'm not asking for sensitivity in general. I'm just asking for simple, harmless sensitivity at the right time. Don't think that's something so difficult to do.
And like Jill said, "do we really have an outlet for our woes and feelings"? I do - Anishia Guilder. GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE NOW.
